with an empty heart

it's impossible to hold my loneliness

day after day, I languish

leaving behind the bruises

before all my dreams disappear

please be my guardian

please support me

do not let go of me

do not abandon me

do not leave me

T E A R S

if I say I hurt,

it really might be painful

if I say I'm sad,

I'm afraid the tears will come

so I just smile.

but why do people keep asking why I'm crying?

I don't have heart.

so it's possible for me to hurt.

I talk to myself,

I ask myself

but the tears keep coming.

Memories - A Struggles Relationship

Love...

It's like a double-edged sword

It can place you on the top of the world

It can also cut you

Deeper than any wound you've ever known

You can leave

Yet...

You are dead

You can see

Yet...

You are blind

You can walk

But...

With no voice

You can breathe

Even when your breath

Has been taken away

You can love

You remain with no heart?

Sometimes

A past relationship can hurt you so bad

You simply want to escape

You find refuge

Some place you can hide

Run away from the world

But wait...

There's more to this story

You know

Love can be such a strange and funny thing

They say that when you least expect it

Love takes its form in the unlikeliest manner

Have you ever wondered sometimes

Could all these be real?

The happy times...

The sad times...

The times we had to struggle to pull through

When you look into his eyes

And he looking back at yours

What is it like?

Holding his hands for the very first time

Soft skin...

Warm heart...

Some believe

No matter how far you go

You will always remember your first love

It is the first cut that is the deepest

Families came between us and we were forced apart

There was no happy ending

This was our song and only you can finish the words

This sorrow was too much for his to bear

And escape became the only solution

Sometimes...

The hardest thing to do is letting go

Heavy hearts

Sweet memories

How did we end up like this?

How did perfection become...

Imperfection?

"Love is a special thing shared between two people. This short love story is dedicated to everyone who ever been in a relationship and understand its struggles."

Tension

THE MOMENT YOU ARE IN TENSION

The Moment you are in TENSION

You will lose your ATTENTION

Then you are in total CONFUSION

And you all feel IRRITATION

This may spoil your personal RELATIONS

Ultimately, you won’t get COOPERATION

And get thing into COMPLICATION

Then you may raise CAUTION

And you have to take MEDICATION

Why not try understanding the SITUATION

And try to think about the SOLUTION

Many problems will be solved by DISCUSSION

Which will work out better in your PROFESSION

Don’t think this is a free SUGGESTION

It is only for your PREVENTION

If you understand my INTENSION

You will never come in TENSION !!!

-Secret Garden Quotation -

In your dreams

What is troubling you so much?

In my dreams

You are there

Are you still not happy with me in your dreams?

Even so...come tomorrow and the next day

Your action has a scent of lavender

Your presence itself is a miracle to me

Somethings feels like fantasy because they're distant

That is the way of stars

Just as it is with people who are too beautiful

They disappear easily

It's quote from the book that I read to understand his true feelings for me and it lingered with me for long

I have realized that now

What an amazing person he is

And that is why he is so distant from me

He will disappear one day as well
As the way people do when they're too beautiful

That Woman Loves You A Lot

one woman loves you

that woman loves you a lot

everyday like a shadow

she follows you around

she yells in her heart

how much more

must i just gaze at you alone like this

must i continue this wind-like love

this useless love

for you to love me

so that woman

love you because you were like

another fool

while she yells it every day only her heart

that woman is by your side today too

do you know that woman is me?

you're not doing this while you know, right?

how much must I just gaze at you alone like this?

I, who loves you

am still by your side

that woman cries

Believed

Who am I actually?

What position do I hold in your heart?

If You don't say it out clear.

You're just letting our love dangle in the mist.

I wait and wait.

Memories of your good keep popping into my mind.

After so much waiting, you still won't even say a word of 'sayang' to comfort me.

I walk forward heads down, tears rolling back.

Walking continuously, never turning back.

Hoping that you will find me.

It wasn't as I wished.

In my dreams I searched a thousand times for him.

Hoping that it will be reality.

I don't want to leave.

My heart can't be controlled.

I still believed that you do understand me...

What should I do?

If I let you go one step, tears will fall

If you just take one step and leave

My tears will fall also

When I stretch out my hands

And you stretch out your hands

But you're too away to reach me

You're leaving

But I won't hold you back

And I will be crying

What should I do?

You're leaving

What should I do?

You're leaving me

I love you

I was crying out to you

But you can't hear me

Because I was shouting it out from my heart

All day long

I tried to erase you from my mind

All day long

I said farewell

But you're in my mind again

I stretch out my hands

What should I do?

You're the only one for me

Finally tell you

I didn't think it was love

I told myself it wasn't love

I deceived myself

But my heart kept calling your name

I take one step towards you

Push you one step away

Each time you grow in my heart

I must be loving you this much

Must be waiting for you this much

Even though it hurts so much

My heart can't seem to let you go

I think there must be just one love

I don't think my heart will change

The love that I've kept only for you

I can now finally tell you

I miss you

Sometimes love, at times tears

Even though it's hard

I like you, I respect you

I only need you by my side

I must still be loving you

I must still be waiting for you

My brain might be fooled

But my heart can't be fooled

I think there must be just one love

I don't think my heart will change

The love that

I've kept only for you

I can now finally tell you

I love you

Without a word

Should have let it all go

Should have ignore it

Like it wouldn't be seen

Like it couldn't be seen

I don't think

I should have seen it

Should have ran away

I should have pretended not to hear

I shouldn't listen to this love

Without a word, you made me know love

Without a word, you gave me your love

Because love left me

Not sure what you wanted to say

But seeing your lips sealed

Must have surprised me

Without a word, love left me

Without a word, love tossed me aside

Not sure what you wanted to say

But seeing your smile sealed

Make me a happy person

Make me fill my self with your every breath

Then you ran away

Without a word, tears are coming down

Without a word, my heart is breaking apart

Without belief, I'm waiting for love

Without belief, I'm hurting for love

I'm hurting for a love without words

I became a fool after my soul left

And cried staring at the sky

Without a word, you came to me

Without a word, you left

Not prepared to let you go

My heart must have been surprised

Because you came without a word

Just like a passing fever

It just needed to hurt for a while

And leave a small scar behind

Can't do anything about love

Unknowingly I'm smiling

My heart keeps drawing you near

Should I keep you in my heart with a smile?

Or should I pretend not to know and hide?

I want to become a good girl for you

So you can count on me

Even though I know I can't face it calmly

But that's just following my heart

I turn around to hide my wavering heart

I can't do anything about love

My heart keeps refusing to move with me

10 Things I Hate about You Poem

10 things I hate about you poem

I hate the way you talk to me

And the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you drive my car

I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots

And the way you read my mind

I hate you so much it makes me sick

It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right

I hate it when you lie

I hate when you make me laugh

Even worse when you make me cry

I hate when you're not around

And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you

Not even close

Not even a little bit

Not even at all

Am I?

Why does my heart exult in rapture

It yearns to be liberated

It wanders away towards you

And so it began

But my heart paid no heed

It raced ahead

Utterly lost

And now so am I

Be my side

Today's sunlight is so beautiful again

Your smile fills my day of live

Even making people in melancholy for a day

Also because you make me feel lively

All these only for you

Can make me forget a day of troubles

My love, anytime by my side

As long as you are by my side

I can do anything

Although sometimes making people feel tough

Might have hurt you

But I will never let go

I will always be by your side

Only for you

Dim

those cold words

those heartbreaking words

you always smiled

and came running to embrace me

I wake up from my sleep

melting away my bitter heart

tears keep coming out

oh can't you see

I keep thinking and thinking about you

oh can't you feel

as usual I think about that day again

our love won't fade away

don't say that you're leaving me

don't say those cliche break up words

I will just walk behind you

I am walking down the road drunk

and suddenly I am in front of your house

let's not do this

let's not do this

I turn around and walk

my crazy heart is calling for you

oh can't you see

this obvious love is getting erased

oh can't you feel

the dim memories are getting clear

can you come back intactly

you can just come back

I can't erase you

my dry tears and my cold heart

I can't erase you

my dry tears and my cold heart

I can forget about everything

You and I

You and I we're both from a different story of past line
The world that separated by idealistic and belief
To the future we cannot sail together for its vessel shall sink
To the depth of sorrow and darkness
To the darkness I shall never find the light to led the way back onto the surface
To a path that I shall lost forever and I cannot grant my own freedom
To the freedom of my own life, so it won't break

source from Xen (my beloved little brother)

What Can I Say

Who would even thought...

I would be as lonely as I'am...

Needing some one as much as I do but him not want me back...

The story of my life...

My hole life to be exact...

Sad isn't it...

I know I had chance's to change that...

But me being so dumb...

I choose differently...

But the only way you can learn is threw experience...

And now I know...

In this world you have to be cold hearted...

In order to not get hurt...

Other wise you'll end up like me...

A.L.O.N.E

Poetry to 2405

when I first saw your eyes

did I misunderstand it?

using a bright smile

you turned me into fool

alright it's like this

because I love you

to me the world

is really touching

if I forget that moment

I can't live on

the short times we had

is so small

Poetry ~ 내가 네게 자꾸 (네게 자꾸)

I don't remember from when it was

When I started to keep thinking about you

Twice, the thoughts would come

They kept getting bigger and

I was a little surprised

I kept thinking it could be nothing

That it could be irrelevant feelings

I'll keep you (keep you)

It was awkward when I talked to you

내가 네게 자꾸 (네게 자꾸)

I'll keep you (keep you)

Poetry ~ Please love me

I don't know it was

Ever since I first saw you

Every minute, every second

I keep thinking about you

What you are doing?

Where you are right now?

Even when I try looking here and there

And stomp on this and that

I keep on liking you

I think I'm going crazy

I wonder if you know how I feel

Everyday stay by my side and protect me

I love you too much for us to be just friends

So can you please tell me that one word

I love you right now?

I love everyday

Only love me

Please love me

I want to know only you and love you

Although spending time in love can be waste

I don't want to do anything without you

Everyday

When I open my eyes in the morning

I want to see you

Now I can't live a day without you

I want to hear that you love me too

I love you everyday

I love only you

The two of us